it feels like the first time

tomorrow is my first day of work, and i'm really nervous! john asked me a few days ago if i was nervous, and although i was, i thought it was just excitement...like the kind of nerves you get when you have a big test, and it's the day before, and you just want to get this day over with and get to the test already. that's how i've felt in this week leading up to my first day. let's go already!! but now i'm just nervous. i have thoughts like...what if i get there and they realize they made a mistake and change their mind? what if i didn't pass my drug test? (a completley irrational thought seeing as how there's no way i didn't pass.) what if i didn't do the right paperwork for my licensure status? ahhhh! i've been cleaning most of the day just trying to get my house in tip-top shape so that i'm not worried about that while i'm at work. i'm so used to cleaning during the week and now i won't have that anymore! i also cooked some food for lunches this week and got my lunch all ready tonight so i don't have to do it in the morning. it's like the first day of school!! john and i are trying to work out a plan for the dogs b/c i worry about them being in their kennels all day, and since i don't get paid until the end of the month doggy day care is not really an option right now. he's going to work from home tomorrow since he has no meetings, which will really help and i love that he has that ability.

all in all, i'm really excited but nervous at the same time. i just hope that it's a good fit and that things go well!